ESCAPE

Escape

Most People think that I LOVE to hear mySelf talk. Can it not be that I’m attempting to drown out my own thoughts? Allowing MySelf to let words Escape from the entangles of my mind. Not hearing mySelf think. I can’t hear the thoughts when I talk. I escape them.

I've locked mySelf in a cage. All of my emotions, thoughts, wants, needs, and desires. All of Me locked away like a raging fire roaring wildly. Too powerful, too fierce to let run free. Too passionate, to LOVING to let roam free. I keep mySelf locked away, it’s what’s easiest. It’s for the bestest. I am consuming, overwhelming...Intense!

I am Hot! I am Hot! i am Burning! Fear takes over… I am paralyzed; afraid to harm, and be harmed. Like a moth to a flame others are drawn. I am swayed to further contain the fiery beast within. People needing and wanting attention. Wanting Time, wanting space with “0” Distance. The sharing of One’s intellectual and spiritual resources. Draining and Feeding like Vampires.

I am consumed.

I am warm.

I am Crowded.

The wind blows. I must maintain my strength. The rain falls, i must take shelter deep in the earth. I lose sense of my element, sense of my place. I unlock mySelf, feeling safe and secure. I swirl, twirl, and flirt. I flirt with Danger. i flirt with destiny, I roam carelessly.

I burn…

I get wet…

I lose ground…

I am an ember, fragile and broken. Wavering in LiFe. i am still hot, but I am weak. The Damage. I’ve destroyed and burned. Now there’s no time, nothing but space: distance boundless. No longer locked in the safety of my cage.

I return to my Secluded place. My senses. Her esi Reality.

I am fire, contain me… In my spherical cage. In there I am safe from Harm. harm of MySelf and others. Never… Ever again.

Admire me from a distance. Think of me, but don’t tell me.

Do NOT touch.

Do NOT feed.

This wild fiery beast must be contained, must be starved: emotions, thoughts, wants, needs, desires. ALL of me locked away. I’ve locked mySelf in a cage.